I was diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 27, and within a month I was prescribed stimulant medication. At first, it felt like everything had changed. I was finally able to focus on my work, sit still for hours and write without constantly second-guessing myself. For the first time, I felt productive in a way I hadn't experienced before. However, as time went on, the side effects began to outweigh the benefits. My anxiety worsened, I struggled to sleep, and the brain fog that had initially disappeared slowly returned. Although my body adapted to the medication, it also became less effective, leaving me caught in a cycle of brief periods of clarity followed by emotional exhaustion and burnout.

These experiences became the starting point for Episodes. Alongside navigating medication and the emotional intensity of ADHD, I found myself falling in love, an experience that heightened feelings of vulnerability, obsession and uncertainty. The project brings these experiences together through photography and automatic writing, exploring how emotional dysregulation, derealisation, memory and intimacy shape the way I experience both myself and the people around me. Rather than documenting ADHD as a diagnosis, Episodes considers how love, mental health and perception become intertwined, using photography as a way of reflecting on moments that feel both deeply familiar and strangely unreal.

The Aesthetics of the automatic Writing is being finished this Week, if you click on the images they will enlarge.